Oooh you're a naughty mess

doing well/ bed before 2200, awake at 0430, up at 0530/ eating nectarines and yoghurt and contemplating another cup of costa rican/ getting up early is always a very bad idea but sometimes lying in bed awake and thinking is too frustrating/ hence a trade off (but isn't everything?)/ other than the sludginess of early rising feel good, esp. in the head where it counts/ flu seems to be retreating so work tonight, college demain/ didn't drink too much yester.: 2 biers and 1/2 btl crisp blanc/ need to quit booze for good or at least keep it at an acceptable level/ however i've relapsed so many times i don't even believe myself any more (tho' at the time i do mean to quit)/ in fact i'm not sure i've ever had a period of abstinence long enough to allow for a relapse/ anyhow, fuck it/ feel good and that's all that means anything/ ease...