feeling terrible, something of a stomach disturbance/ i speculate it might be the mild drinking of the past three and one half years/ this malady colours my every thought, makes all seem threatening and hopeless/ for one with my particular bent of mind, any further pain is really quite unnecessary/ born to suffer...

doin' 'k'/ wine and beer d'late so no suicidal feelings in the early morn./ currently drinking rouge and listening to miles, straight no chaser/ not much is news/ another annoyingly successful day at work on saturday/ sunday got very drunk on polish beer and french wine and watched the abysmal batman begins, followed by the lamentable the hills have eyes/ i watch maybe 5 hours of television a month and it's far too much/ it spews forth little but poisonous vomit/ vile/ any-route...so jeff mills show going out on friday/ what else...need to take a bath and shave my head/ office christmas party this coming saturday which, aside from the free booze, should be excruciating/ bizat...