dropped another 2.5mls methadone yester and as per went on a two bottle vodka binge, whiling away the after upstairs blathering shit to my neighbours and smoking pollem/ i then returned home, necked a 'fatal' dose of anti-depressants and went to work/ i made it as far a e- before realising i'd loose my job if i turned up in that state/ so i went to house of m- but no one was there/ the door was open so i sat on the couch for a bit and freaked when i realised the furniture had changed and that perhaps someone else now lived there/ i left, tried to steal a side of parma ham from a deli and then bought a cpl beers for my homeward journey/ memory fails me after that/ i woke at 0530 to the dawn chorus and've been reading since/ rock 'n' stroll...

doin' g'd/ down to 5mls methadone and a cpl day beers, tho' sat. night was an all nighter thru till morning then the parents came and the sister yet i managed to cook and made it till 2130 b4 collapse/ got work later 'n' rx pick-up: routine, routine, routine/ listening to black grape, in the name of the father/ yes...