Oooh you're a naughty mess

no spirits in two weeks and one day/ doing much better, esp. mentally - feelings of anxiety and deep dread've been largely dispatched/ my appetite's back & i'm sleeping well/ i miss getting high (in the 30's sense, id est drunk) but the price became too high - horrific mental and physical side effects, missing work, profuse sweating (which i'd'd for 3 years but never accepted), arguing with the alba; in all a bad scene/ now i eat healthy food and drink a cpl beers and a btl wine per jour/ that's probably too much but better than 1 & 1 1/2 - 2 btls of vod. plus extras/ i hope it lasts/ i'm optimistic parce que i've sickened of the rollercoaster lifestyle/ i began daily smoking and swallowing drugs 15 years ago and each addiction i've taken to vile extremes/ now some of my demons've been laid to rest i'm hoping i can learn delayed gratification and make some sensible decisions - get my blood pressure down to a reasonable level, let my damaged liver and brain heal, &c./ if i can recover from acute cannabis psychosis, chronic heroin, crack and alcohol addiction i think i can achieve these things/ bizat...