Oooh you're a naughty mess

do i write well?/ some say yes/ i'm not sure/ i often find serious fault with my writing/ other, not so often, times i think it great/ when i write about something which excites me the product is invariably better than when i just try and write/ anyway.../ off to north london in a few hours for the obvious/ might drop in on a pal on the way home/ might even get one of each since the b is of such remarkable quality/ i smoked a tiny bit of recycle this morning and gouched!/ this has never happened before/ i would love to know the purity, but as aforesaid i imagine it in the seventies/ colour is a fairly good rough indicator/ the whiter the powder, the purer the gear/ and this shit is only a subtle shade off white/sipping a beer and typing/ off to north london at half four and am meant to help a friend pack up his belongings for his house move on saturday/ however will no doubt, once i've got, revert to junky type and lie my way out of the commitment so i can return home and sit smug and warm, ensconced in my little chemically-improved world/life is just so much more tolerable when you're high/ i hope a full relapse isn't imminent/ i've not been this excited about heroin since i first started using/ it occupies a considerable amount of thought space/ i'm just so excited having accidentally reached a not far off imitation of the holy grail/ i've fantasised about heroin of good, nay excellent purity since the age of nine/and now i have access to some/ i can barely express how it makes me feel/ purity of this kind is a myth, the sort of thing old time junkys say they've encountered maybe once in their long careers and speak of in hallowed, reverent tones/ and i have access to it/ perhaps is is a mistake at the dealers end such phenomenal stuff has made it onto the street/ after all they are not known for their benevolence and they could cut it by 50 percent and the average punter would be happy/so i'm a very happy boy/ if i had a permanent line on stuff of this quality i think a relapse would be inevitable/but i have no way of knowing this isn't a permanent line/perhaps dealers do it as an occasional treat to keep people coming back in the hope of getting lucky and scoring the good shit/ a gambling addiction juxtaposed with a drug addiction/ how many habits can one rack up?/ so i'm off to gamble this after/ should be fun/