Oooh you're a naughty mess

up obscenely early, 'ving passed out at 1900 and slept well till 0000/ i next rose at 0415 then returned to bed till my mind over-pestered me, rising finally at 0445/ listening to the velvet underground, the gift and drinking acerbic red/ i just can't sleep soundly and for an uninterrupted and reasonable period without alcohol or heroin/ i'm now almost off methadone and certainly not drinking as much as i was a year ago (i have evidence)/ i feel more sprightly and look better/ however i do not sleep as well and thus suffer adverse psychological facts/ these are not pleasant but life is full of shit and good and one n'er gets it all good/ one must aim for the least shit solution/ is this it?/ i'm not sure/ memory is a fucker/ so what do i do?/ hmm.../ accept there are no answers/