Oooh you're a naughty mess

need nooh/ quack?/ quick?/ what?/ need what i've got and got it but what to do with it i don't know if i new i would not spend my whole life searching searching searching i search and search and search and question and obsess and let go and pick over things and numb myself (mainly numb myself) i do so every day always with the best of intentions but it does not take long to thwart them thoroughly is the sense of hope one awakes with and which is extinguished by heavy drinking worth what i get from drinking? 'tis after all a welt of weight and measure but when i see the behavior of individuals a lot older than me i do feel i know a lot more than they and indeed i do i've lived further than them in a far shorter space of time but what of my liver?