doin' good/ made my first film yester: actors were on time, all went rather well, footage looks ok/ 'twas a larf and a good as-against for sitting in the house on a hot summer's day drinking...

feeling rather mental, consequence of citalopram and booze/ i am now resolved to quit - i cannot take this head-mess any more/ moreover it's bound to get worse/ it feels like cannabis psychosis so p'haps it's early alcohol dementia/ shit i'm only 29.../ anyway i have to quit, sort my head out once and for all: anti-depressants, counselling, positive activities &c/ i cannot go on like this...

doin' well/ friday palz over for bbq and pissed massively, four odd bottles of wine topped with wild sex of many hours/ then woke to a manageable bad head the following/ slept on-off most of the jour then a curry in the eve & early bed/ woke this morn feeling cleansed so to park with alba where met some friends for coffee, straight up/ now about to shop for lunch and attempt to avoid alcohol at least till this eve/ out...

doin' ok/ fell off the booze wagon in a major way - a four day bender involving countless bottles of wine and whiskey/ finally to bed at 1830 monday to wake suicidal tuesday at 0200/ h'ever battled thru college yester and felt ok when got home/ to bed at 2000 and miraculously slept till 0445, rising at 0555/ now drinking tea and trying to not think/ ease...

booze break's broken - yester 3 bierz and 1/3 btl whiskey/

bored shitless & reading bukowski/ trying to resist having a beer/ i don't actually want one but it's something to do like/ might go back to bed...

still fucking malady ridden so off work again/ got the job at the radio station, managed college and castings and a fairly busy week besides but feel death ravaged today/ had 11 days off booze tho' not consecutive - thursday night very pissed and stayed up till 0330 watching alien/ consumed a btl white, two guiness and 1/2 btl whiskey/ felt shocking the following day so after a visit to the doc.'s (he say i've a prolonged viral infection since the penicillin did jack shit) bed early after small drinks with v- und the alba/ today rose at 0615, drank coffee, felt shit so phone in sick and since've been reading about marvin gaye, listening to junior well's hoodoo man blues album and masturbating occasionally/ vice...